keeping the faith

Faith ... a firm belief in something for which there is no proof.

Today, I've tried really hard to have faith that God will open the doors for which he sees fit for Jerry and I. It's hard to want ... a promotion, a new house, financing, hopes that our house will sell quickly, Jerry's job to remain intact ... but know that God is in full control of all those things. I found myself having to remind myself of that today. I have to know in my heart that if I pray and have faith that God will provide, this my life will be full ... no matter what the outcome is.

So, as I sit here and stress over whether or not we'll be pre-approved for a the right amount of loan, as I wonder if the house that I would love to have may be sold out from under us I have to realize that if it is not meant to be it's not meant to be. That really sounds trival sometimes when you think about it, really. I mean, our society is so used to going out and getting what we want and if we can't have it then we push and push until we can get it no matter the cost and what it does to our soul in the process.

Wouldn't it be easier if we gave it all up to God to deal with and let him regain control ... you know ... he did create our lives for us before we were born ... he has seen the writing on the wall ... he knows what is best and when the time comes he will show it to us.

So, here I go ... God ... I am giving this all to you. If I can supposed to get that job promotion with a slight raise, let it happen, I am ready and waiting. If we are meant to get the house we love in the neighborhood where I feel good about our neighbors and feel great friendships can be formed ... let it happen. Put the wheels in motion as you seem fit. Help me realize and have faith that you are in control and you are going to provide for what is best for my family ... whether or not it is what I want or not.

And in the end ... I am blessed in so many ways and as I reach and search for faith I have to remind myself of those every day blessings. I have two beautiful and HEALTHY girls. I have a wonderful husband who adores me and would do anything for me. We have food on our table, fresh water to drink, and a house over our heads and most importantly and above all we have our friends and family. I thank God for those many blessings.